I feel really shitty today. Like its the type of day where I just shouldn't have gotten out of bed. But I have stuff to do at work this afternoon so I can't even leave at lunch. My anxiety/depression just makes me not give one single fuck about anything. Not exercising, not meeting work deadlines, not paying bills on time. I'm just in a constant state of anxiousness and I can only function at the bare minimum and even then I need more recovery time than is reasonable for a new mom who works full time. I hate myself for having PPD so much. I'm just a failure at this and my husband is feeling the strain of picking up my slack. When does this get better?