I went to vent to my mom about how I felt guilty and stressed over the fact that I spent $25 on 2 belts and a dress that I didn't need. I know, it's almost pathetic that I'm dwelling over $25 when it's not that much money, and I'm fortunate enough to be able to spend money on non-necessities. I'm just angry at myself for shopping when I didn't need to be doing so. I always WANT something. I make small little purchases like multiple times a week for things I don't need.

Anyway, she's usually helpful, but instead she yelled at me and said that I was crazy and really needed to go get help for my constant stress over money and finances. Which is 100% true, I do need to see someone because this is like...a crippling feeling. Anxiety in itself, but especially anxiety over money when it's not like I'm even struggling. I just have a lot going on...dental school is so expensive. I'm going to be $300,000 - 400,000 in debt when I finish school because yeah, like I said, super expensive (and note—I haven't even started school yet; I'll be starting in the fall). And you don't get grants or scholarships for dental school like you might in undergrad or grad school. Sigh. But this is absolutely what I want to do with my career, so.

I don't know. I don't like feeling this way. I just feel gross that I even feel anxious over something when I'm privileged in so many ways. I don't have to worry about paying bills really (minus undergrad loans). My parents love to have me live with them at home, without charge. I get to drive their cars. They support me whenever necessary. I'm not UNFORTUNATE, so why do I feel so bad? It's like I struggle with the fact that I am fully aware that my self-pity is SO ridiculous because everything could be a lot worse off for me. But I don't know, I guess if you had hundreds of thousands of dollars in future debt looming over you, wouldn't you kinda feel the same way?

Anyway, sorry for the super ramble-y post. I hope I don't sound like a whiny brat :S