I didn't get fired

Hi, I'm Korra, and I have a problem with premature freakouts. My former therapist was totally right, this is something I still need to work on.

Turns out they didn't email me about the schedule because they (a) are trying to figure out how to put me on the schedule for slower days, (b) are training a new general manager so things are kind of wonky on their end, and (c) are rethinking their "only 1 server on the floor" policy in part because of my performance Thursday. The HR lady actually said I could be really good there, I just needed more time. This was a huge relief because by the time I actually went down to pick up my tips I was literally convinced she had the police waiting there to arrest me because I had somehow lost them money by being so awful. Not figuratively. Literally. I was seriously going to text my boyfriend that if I didn't meet him at the gym today it was because I was in jail.

Thank you for being there for me, GT. I feel silly now, but relieved to be employed and have such supportive people around me. :)

I got fired

Only one real shift and I got fired. The way I learned how? I never heard back from them about this week's schedule, so I emailed my coworker and she told me I wasn't anywhere on it.
I know I wasn't up to snuff my first night, but I improved a lot the second half of the shift and I hoped since the job was so incredibly grueling I'd be given the chance to get even better. Guess not.

I'm so dejected. I was at the end of my rope when I got this job, and now I'm maybe $400 less at the end. Also I've never been fired before, so this stings something fierce. I'm less freaked out about being fired than I am about, ya know, BEING UNEMPLOYED AND HAVING VIRTUALLY NO MONEY. I'm a BIG FAT FAAAAAAAAAAAAAAIIIIIIIIIIIILLLLLLLLLLLLLUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUURRRRRRRRRRRRRRREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE