I got to see Dan Savage today, which was awesome, and kind of made me heartachy as well.

He was talking about monogamy and non-monogamy in long term relationships, and talked a bit about his life. And his take on his relationship has so much integrity and honesty and kindness and bravery.

And there in that same crowd was my ex, who refused to communicate, who blamed me for all the problems in our relationship, who broke up with me in a text message after seven years, and gave me a half assed apology for it also in a text.

I want to have that kind of relationship, but first I want to be the kind of person who can have that kind of relationship. I want to be braver, and honest about who I am with the world, and respect my needs and take myself as seriously as I would anyone else.