Like, a literal sexual one. Turbo NSFW TMI after the bumper gif so this is your warning.
Ok so I haven't had a proper orgasm in YEARS. The very first one I remember was when I was 18 and I was using a glass coke bottle as a helper. I've been chasing that feeling ever since.
I've had sex with a number of dudes and I always get really close and it feels kinda like an orgasm is happening but not really? It builds and it feels good but it kinda just peters out instead of EXPLOSIONS like the first time. FYI, I also haven't had sex in about 2 years now. Yes, years. I have a vibrator and I like masturbating with porn but when I do it that way it's just a physical feeling of my vagina sorta clenching and unclenching. It's just a physical response from my clit being overstimulated. It's nice but I don't get whole body orgasms from porn/vibrator masturbation time.
Today, however, was different. I was talking to this guy I like last night and we were being a little flirty and such. We stopped talking around midnight after a lot of heavy flirty talking and I felt horny for the first time in a loooong time. I went to sleep, got up this morning and was still feeling that feeling. So I went ahead and masturbated (without porn, just thinking about this guy) and it was AMAZING. Like full-body, toe-cracking, I-couldn't-really-move-afterward, orgasm!
Now I'm laying here happy and sated and I totally get where people are coming from when they talk about being horny and wanting sex and such. I feel like fucking dancing around in celebration. I can have real orgasms!