On one hand, it would be great if our legislators and their staff had to use the same healthcare that so many Americans have to use and are fearful of losing. On the other hand, what’s the point if they’re going to lose it anyway? I’m sick to death of this. What’s next? My neighbors are all poor people, many of whom depend on the ACA for coverage, and just when it seems like they might be getting a moment to breathe, they are reminded that our Number One Asshole. Oompa Loompa is not going to be satisfied until he has murdered them. At this point, I’m not sure I will be able to survive through the next three and a half damn years. Fuck it.

What’s next? Medicaid? Will I have to watch my sister sink into an even deeper depression because she can’t work any more since her brain surgery and she can’t even control her hands to play ukulele, or remember song lyrics, or chop vegetables for dinner, or remember a thing she read or saw or heard? Or will it just be fatigue from the headaches with no relief that will finally do her in? Do I just watch my neighbor, who had a stroke a few months ago, waste away because he can’t work any more and can’t get blood pressure medicine? What about expectant mothers or people with chronic mental illness? I’m privileged. I have Medicare and if they don’t touch it I will be fine, but what about those people around me? I feel like my vote never counted, that my phone calls and letters to my representatives mean nothing, and that I’m participating in this stupid, corrupt, broken system for no reason, because at the end of the day, Trump wants what he wants and he will SLAY EVERYONE HE CAN/MUST/BOTH to get it. What does he have to lose? He’ll never find himself on the broke end of the healthcare scale. He will never know what it’s like to die for lack of fifty dollars to buy insulin.

Who cares what the citizens of this country want? Trump doesn’t, and neither does the majority of the Republican party leadership, right now. People have been speaking, writing, calling, PLEADING, and nothing. No succor, not even for a damn WEEK to believe the people might be safe. I’m sorry for this rant. I’m just so mad. I’m watching terrified families all around me, wondering if they’re going to be able to afford fucking asthma medicine or blood pressure medication and shit and it’s making me so mad that I keep having dreams about armed revolt. Fuck this stupid country and its stupid politics.

I hope this stupid @#$&% shit his pants in public. A big, nasty, runny one. I know I can’t publicly wish for anything more satisfying. Ugh.