The boy broke up with me three weeks ago. He told me I'm amazing and wonderful and great, and he still loves me, but that he's broken and he just can't do it anymore. Much crying on both of our parts ensued, with me telling him I didn't want this and that it was a mistake, but, he was positive and that was that.

And I am finally getting resigned to the fact that we're not getting back together and one of my BFFs saw him this weekend (her bf is BFFs with him - yeah, that's not awkward at all...) and he told her, after a night of drinking, that he loved me and I was the best thing that ever happened to him and he doesn't deserve me and he's broken. He is seeing a therapist (or at least, I hope he still is) so that's good but I have no idea what to do with this. Like none.

I feel kinda numb about it.

I don't know what to do with this information. I want to call him and yell at him for not talking to me about this or demand that we get back together - but then again, I don't. I know that us being back together without him getting his shit together is a bad idea but I miss him. So much.

Okay, stopping typing now because crying at your desk is bad, m'kay...