Every so often I have dreams that I am back wandering the halls of my university campus, looking for the class that I'm late for (and usually that I have missed so many classes that I'm now hopelessly behind and failing) but that I can't find it. Normally I realize that I've already graduated, so I'm not late and I don't have to go to class after all. This is usually quite a relief to my dream-self. But it wasn't today. Instead, I felt a sense of sadness that I'm no longer attending school.
This dream has left me unsettled. I loved grad school for the learning, less so for the enormous workload and price (I could have bought a house instead). I don't know what to think. Does this dream mean that I subconsciously want to pursue teaching? Does it mean I want to go back to school and get a PhD? I've considered both but not seriously. Or maybe I just miss being immersed in learning. Because I love learning, and now that I'm not in school anymore I feel like I'm getting progressively dumber, and I don't like it.