i just got back from my dr and he's sending me for an mri because of the almost constant headaches i've been having, and an ultrasound to check my gall bladder and kidneys. the med he wants to put me on for the headaches has 2 major side effects: weight loss (cool) and kidney stones (not cool). he thinks i'm going to need my gall bladder out because i've been having pain in my side for months. i reallyreallyreally don't want any more surgeries and i was hoping to leave the Earth with all the parts i brought to it.

i drink mostly water, only a can of soda now and then. i eat fruits and veggies, beans, some lean meats, olive and coconut oils. ok, i go a little nuts on the carbs (bread...mmmm) but i'm not terribly concerned about my weight. i'm a big girl but not uncomfortably so. i smoke the occasional cigarette, have the occasional beer. i walk a couple miles a couple times a week. my blood pressure is good. my pulse is good. my lungs are clear. my cholesterol is good.

my only real health problems have been having miserable periods and hip and knee problems as a result of a back injury. and migraines, but those are a family thing.

THIS IS NOT FAIR.

anyway, i don't really know if i have a point, i'm just pissed that i take pretty good care of myself and all of a sudden, it doesn't seem to matter. i hate having surgery, the anesthetics always make me violently ill when i come out of it. i hate having an mri because i'm seriously claustrophobic (basements, closets, elevators... no thank you!) and now i have to have a brain scan with my head in a tube. this all just sucks. makes me think of those t-shirts that say: Eat Right, Exercise, Die Anyway.