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I wish I wasn't like this - talking about confidence

I try to be a confident person, I really do. But deep down, I berate myself again and again and again and again and again. I know I have so much potential, and I know I've accomplished some awesome things. But in the end, no matter how great I'm doing, I'm always thinking, "What if I fail?" and think of the worst-case scenario. It's as if I take myself for granted. Someone today at work said something that triggered this panic and fear in me about the fact that it's possible that I won't get into any of the schools I've applied to/interviewed with. The comment was benign, but it just triggered something in me. I wanted to cry on my drive back home because I kept thinking about all of these negative thoughts and "what ifs" ("What if I don't get into so-and-so school? What if I don't get into any schools?"). I don't feel so great right now. I want to think positively, but it's really fucking hard.


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