I'll preface this by apologizing, because I feel like I only post self-indulgent downer stuff on groupthink. Sorry :(

I'm freaking out and just need to write this somewhere on the internet. I'm house-sitting/dog-sitting for a friend's family, and their house is too big and it's dark, and too quiet (too quiet to even sit and read), and they have too many windows, and I just want to go home and sleep in my own bed. The fact they have a security system and really stressed me using it makes me more nervous than if they didn't have one at all. I didn't foresee being away from home making me so anxious as it never has before, but I just feel so incredibly alone. I still have to stay here for another week, and honestly I'm not sure I'm going to be able to do it. I've only been here for 4 days, and already last night I broke down and cried myself to sleep. The dog isn't bad, but so high energy that he's driving me crazy. He won't sleep at night, so I get to be kept awake by his whining and scratching, because the owners told me that he's not allowed to sleep on the bed.

Only a few days here and I'm feeling so anxious that I feel physically sick. It's too late to call anyone to come over, and I don't want to make any of my friends go out of their way because I'm feeling silly about being alone. Pretty much all of my family is out of town visiting other family for Christmas or just too busy.

Basically Christmas this year has been the worst. I just want to go back to my little hovel. Everything is too big and empty here.