You guise, something happened to my vision, and I'm freaking out. I haven't had an eye exam in over three years because I thought everything was fine - the only problem I've ever had was "you read too much and it's going to destroy your vision" when I was 12, but it didn't, so I thought I was like, the Superwoman of Reading.

And last night, I just randomly LOST MY PERIPHERAL VISION IN MY RIGHT EYE. Like WHAT THE FUCK. Like it wasn't black spots, it felt like if I had been on drugs I would have just thought part of the world stopped existing. I was watching the Mindy Project and three people would be filling up the screen, and I would only see two until the third person talked and I realized they were there. I tested with my hand and my peripheral vision stopped before my hand was even at a 45 degree angle to my body.

I'm really scared. It isn't as bad this morning, the hand test passes more, but when I look straight ahead I still feel like there's more to the world on the left side than the right. I'm going to the optometrist right now, but I feel like I'm going to cry. I have enough insurance to cover exactly one eye appointment per year that goes through without any extras - I don't know what I'll do if I need something to fix this. I am desperately hoping she'll just say "it's strain from reading too much, just stretch your eyes out by looking down the street" (which is what I was told when I was 12). Oh, and I'm doing my PhD right now and reading ALL OF THE TIME so I can't just say "fuck it", I need my eyes to be working. And reading is harder like this, it feels difficult when it didn't before.

Has anyone had this happen before and had things be okay? I am so scared right now.


(Although I am excited to have a female optometrist for the first time.)

Update: Was not a woman! Optometrist says my eyes are fine and beyond that couldn't do much. Confirmed that my peripheral is still wonky. Advised I see a doctor to get a referral for a CT scan. He said it might be an atypical migraine but didn't want to reassure me too much before I saw a doctor. So I'm in Urgent Care now, waaaaiting. Thank you all so much for your advice and support!!