My mom has been getting upset easily with me over stupid things lately and today I have just had it. I don't even want to be around her and it is convincing me that leaving the state for grad school is the best idea I've had. It just reinforced how I've been feeling for a long time about living in this area, being in this house, and needing a fresh start in general. My first true moment of happiness in a long time was when I received my letter of acceptance. I'm not depressed, but I feel like I'm being refreshed or something.

I haven't had a good night's sleep since Saturday. Thinking about moving, as much as I am excited, makes me nervous. Starting a doc program makes me nervous. I've been thinking about ex-Hopeful a lot and I am sad that the one guy I trusted is not here and we didn't even have a chance.

I worked out today and almost threw up 'cause I guess I over worked myself.

I'm so tired of it all. I kind of want to stay with someone else for a while soon 'cause I don't want to be in this house.