I need good thoughts, calming words, funny gifs, and inappropriate jokes?

I'm not even a little bit calm, and I can't do things to keep my mind off of how un-calm I am. I mean, even though I cleaned ALL THE THINGS last night, I'd still do it again today, but I can't even sit up easily. No meds, no water, no safe blood pressure level.

The good news: Mother is no longer acting pissy and martyr-y at me. That stressor is gone. My nurse case manager is awesome, and called me last night to see if there was anything I wanted him to communicate to the office. He's the best.

I'm not even sure if I'm going to bring up my issue with sedation that I talked about before. I think my illogical fears of the cardiologist violating my privacy the way the dentist did are mostly alleviated. I might just ask questions about "how long will I be wacky" instead, and if I feel the need to bring the other up, well, it's a game-time decision.

Less awesome: I HAVE to drag myself to the bathtub to scrub down with chlorhexadine. I can get from here to there while leaning on something the whole time, and I'll just use tepid water. (Hot water makes me faint on an OK day.) Also, I have chest pains. Do not want. They'll probably therefore elect to do a D-dimer test to ensure there are no clots, based on my history of embolism, even though I KNOW it's just from anxiety.

PollyDog is playing nurse right now (will NOT let me get up), and PollyDude will be here in an hour and a half or so, and I know he'll calm me down pretty well. In the meantime, though, help me feel better pls?

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