And I feel like a complete fucking idiot.

I lost my driver license, my debit card, my health insurance card, everything. In my bed. Or under it. Or somewhere in the house.

I didn't go outside today (yay?) so they can't be out there somewhere. They are in this fucked up pigsty of a room. I lost them in my bed. I think. I was in bed when I had them, I got up to talk to the woman on the phone about the "irregular charges" and get some coffee and now they're gone.

And now I'm flailing and crying about this and it's stupid. I don't know what to do. I'm going to a place with food trucks tomorrow and I need some form of money. I don't even know. I'm just rambling.

I'm falling down a stupid shame spiral over cards that have been lost inside my own room. Or house. They are somewhere in here, I just don't know where.