DON'T MAINPAGE. I DON'T KNOW WHY YOU WOULD WANT TO, BUT JUST DON'T, OKAY.
My mom handed me a job bulletin a couple days ago for my county. I want to apply, but there are a couple HUGE gaps in my work history (a total of around five/six years where severe depression, anxiety, mild OCD, and suicidal thoughts ate my life and rendered me completely useless) that is making me anxious. I've been working for a few weeks now (thank the gods for nepotism), but that big block with no work history just looks awful. Most of the time when I apply for jobs online, I say that I have been working intermittently with staffing firms, or that I had medical/family emergencies that pulled me out of state. I have applied to county jobs previously this way.
My relative, who I'm now working for, is willing to vouch for me for those many years of not working. My question is should I apply for this job like I have before, or use my relative (and her references) to fill it? I'm kind of terrified that I will add the new information, and get caught and disqualified for all jobs with the county. But I know, based on previous interviews with the county, that this missing work history is hurting me.
I just wish I knew what to do so I don't fuck up again. I'm 29 you guys, I literally have no time to continue failing at life.