My cat, Molko, is very sick. She’s been on medication for her kidneys for a long time and we found out yesterday that they’re starting to shut down. She’s still at the vet, they’re flushing her kidneys through, which potentially could give us a little more time with her, though it may not and we may have to put her down in the next couple of days. Even if it works, it won’t give us long and we’ll be on borrowed time with her. She’s not in any pain and the vet says she’s currently stable and comfortable. She’s 19 which is a good age for a cat.

I’m so heartbroken. I mean I knew in my heart we wouldn’t have much longer at her age but I still hoped. She’s my baby and I love her so, so much. She’s the reason my mental health has been more stable this last year, cuddling with her always improved my mood and made me feel good. She is a little darling. She’s very vocal and complains all the time, about everything. She wants to sit somewhere, she complains. Not stroking her how she’d like? She complains. Her nagging meow sounds like a sheep noise and it’s so cute. I’m going to miss that the most.

I’m going to miss her so much. She’s a big part of my day to day life and it was so quiet without her this morning. I can’t even convey how sad I am. I don’t know how I’m going to go on without her. She’s so precious to me.