I can't sleep so I figured this was a good time to remind everyone here that I love them. Everyone's advice earlier gave me the confidence to be truthful with my therapist. I'm actually looking forward to therapy today. It may be silly but I don't know that I would be pursuing better therapy as hard as I have been without your encouragement and support. You all have managed to make me not feel alone during a time where I've never been more isolated from people. You've taught me that I'm not less of a person for having a mental illness and that it doesn't mean I can't be a worthwhile person either. It may not seem like it some days but I really am doing so much better. Most days I can think about what the peep will be like as she grows and smile and think "I'm her mommy and I get to be with her for all that. I am lucky."