I watched the movie Life Partners last night, and it made me think about a lot of things. (Side note: I really liked the movie. It felt very real to me, and it was really funny too. But that's not really what this is about.)
1. Can you start a best friendship once you're in a long-term relationship? I had two "best friends" in college - the talk to each other every day, know every details of each other's lives kind of best friend. For various reasons, both of those people aren't in my life anymore. And it really hurt at first, but I'm mostly over it. Now I'm just curious if I'll ever have that kind of friendship again. Don't get me wrong, I have lots of friends. AMAZING friends. I just spent the weekend in San Francisco hanging out with one of my best friends from college, a friend from high school and an old family friend, and it was a blast! Admittedly, most of my closest friends don't live in the same city as me, which kind of sucks, but they're still my friends. And the Constable fulfills lots of best friend duties in my life - we know everyone in each other's lives and talk about everything and basically get to have slumber parties every night, which rocks. But those best friendships I had before, they were all formed when we were all single and living in the same dorm or sorority house and saw each other all the time and it was so EASY to get to know someone. And I'm scared that because I'm in a relationship now, and a damn good one, so there's a decent chance I won't be experiencing singledom any time soon (knock on wood), I won't have a chance to form a BEST friendship again.
2. I think I might be Sasha, career-wise. I'm a grad student in economics instead of a failed musician by night/miserable receptionist by day, but there's still that feeling of "I think I need to find a job I don't hate." I keep thinking grad school will get better, but I'm miserable and I've developed such severe anxiety about anything related to grad school and my number one coping mechanism is avoidance. But all that leads to is me spending a semester dicking around, avoiding thinking about the work I need to do, then writing my term paper in a week, and being so upset at having to turn in shit work that I spent three days crying about it. I just can't keep doing this. SOMETHING needs to change, but I can't figure out if I've hit my breaking point of "I'm too miserable in grad school and I can't fix it anymore" or if I just am still figuring out how to do grad school and it's supposed to be this miserable? And then when I think about quitting grad school I have a panic attack thinking about the fact that I don't know how to do ANYTHING else and I have no idea what kind of job would make me not miserable. Blergh.
3. On a lighter note, does anyone have any idea where this movie was set? Wikipedia says it was shot in Los Angeles, but there was a scene in a Cub Foods, which I'm pretty sure they don't have in Los Angeles.