Me: Oh hey, Good Friend Who Is Now Coworker. How was your trip with 80% of our friend group to the mountains this weekend?

GFWINC: Oh, it was alright. Fun but crowded. You?

Me: *mentally* Oh, I spent my long weekend sobbing and miserable and pretty irrationally paranoid about stupid social anxiety shit stemming from a mistake I made. I'm pretty sure that if my anxiety continues to operate at this level I won't be able to handle graduate school. I don't know what medication to try next. I'm ashamed that I'm ducking for the easy way out but CBT and mindfulness can only do so much when your anxiety is a constant hum literally all the time. I'm so tired of feeling this way and of trying to live this way.

Me: *out loud* It was fine. Y'know.