TL;DR: Please help.

I have never really looked for a job in my life. Never even had a 'real' one. I have an internship now, but have been shot down three times for 'real' work. Normal, I know. Discouraged and stressed, yes. I just don't know where I should be looking, or what to look for.

I have to post a bit more about my state of mind. Especially right now. I'm on the verge of tears, stressed beyond belief, had sleep paralysis (Explained to me by my doctors as a reaction to extreme stress. I've been stressed before, but last week was the first time) and my parents are adding to everything.

Every time I talk to them: "Why don't you have a job yet? Are you even looking?"

Yes, I am.

I've been mostly on Craigslist. I have a Career Sushi profile, but that's pretty confusing. I'm trying my best at alumni connections (I just got on the board for alumni relations though), and I'm revising my resume and cover letter for everything I apply for.

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I don't know what I'm doing. Maybe I'm looking for the wrong thing. Writer, blogger-yeah, not sustainable or realistic right now. I need to look at other things, but I don't know what. I basically need more places to look.

What's a 'normal' fresh out of college job? My accomplishments are all academic and my current internship. I've never worked a real job in my life. There are complicated issues around that.

I want my parents off my back, I want a job, and I don't want to be this depressed or stressed. I'm in a place where, if I even look, I'm too anxious to move. I have no one to talk to this about except my doctor and you guys.

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I feel weak for breaking down and getting frustrated. I'm not unique in this position. I really don't know what I'm doing. I pretend to be happy. I'm not.

I may not be able to get back any comments today because I have my internship.

Just...please, advice.

PS-I don't even know if I want to go back to school. I don't really know what I want to do. I'm really on the verge here. And I'm ashamed of that.