Talking about my weekend plans of the unexpected flight over to see my grandmother who, on the back of chemo not working, has been hospitalised, trying and failing to hide the fact that I was crying, having my colleague apologise for making me cry, and then sitting in my car for 10 minutes crying big ugly tears.

I don't know if this is because I'd spoken to my mother earlier in the week and had to say something that had been in my head for months out loud for the first time, or because I'm PMSing and I miss the Boy-Person and I don't know when I'm going to see him next, so I'm feeling wobbly generally, but everything to do with Granny is just feeling very near the surface at the moment.

I'm just feeling very delicate at the moment and I need a hug.