So I'm someone who has major anxiety issues, unfortunately. Right now, I'm supposed to be studying a language in a foreign country because I won a scholarship from the Dept. of Education, and I am. I have problems with social situations, although apparently you would never know it, and most of the people I'm around here are undergrads and not graduate students. I just have to make it to the end of July, but I am experiencing crazy anxiety like I haven't had in almost a decade, mostly spurred I think by rejection from this guy causing me to examine my life and realize that I don't have the social aspects in it that I desperately want and feeling like I'm somehow lacking because of it. I'm seeing a psychologist here and talking to family and some of the few friends I have, but honestly, hour to hour is such a struggle. I have no interest in anything and am so freaking exhausted constantly but can't sleep. I hate having a mental illness. I know life isn't fair, but I'm just so freaking sick of fighting it.