I am dissolving.

I’ve imploded my relationship with Fellow because I’m failing at communication. I am utterly incompetent at it. I do not deserve him and never did. I can’t even apologize, because he deserves so much more than an apology. He deserves a better woman who can be better to him.

I’ve worried my parents enough that my mother has flown out from California. I don’t know how to face her either.

I am in pieces, and I don’t know what to do from here.