Well, went to the doctor today to have my first ultrasound. No heartbeat was found. I feel like probably the worst person ever right now. I cried through the first few weeks here because I was so afraid of how I was going to make it work financially and it seems like this is all my fault. It had to have known I was stressed out. I have to wait a week before this passes naturally and then I get it surgically removed next weekend. I can't stop crying now.

*edits*

thank you for the kind words. husband came home from work and is watching our toddler right now. i think i'm going to go get some bad food and lay in bed. no more facebook for a while. i can't look at those pictures of all those sweet babies.