So I'm sitting here about to have some sort of nervous breakdown/curl into a ball and cry.
I was tagged in a bunch of photos on facebook from a friendsgiving event. I'll save you all the nitpicking, but I looked at myself and burst into tears. I had my hair cut short today and I burst into tears afterwards even though it looks nice and the stylist did a great job.
So then I went over to my parents and got on their exercise bike in the garage and burned off the calories of the small bowl of raisin bran I had this morning. Because that's totally productive and going to help.
I feel bloated all day, every day. I don't want to eat because I already feel like my insides are too big for my skin. I don't eat badly when I do eat, and I eat a lot of vegetables. I work out and I'm on my feet a lot.
I've narrowed down what's happening to four possible scenarios:
-I stopped taking the pill a year and a half ago. My hormones are fucking crazy and could've contributed to weight gain.
-I have a thyroid problem.
-I'm getting older and my metabolism hates me.
So besides doing the usual routine of crying on the floor whenever this happens and wanting to just crawl out of my skin because I can't stand myself, I adulted and scheduled two doctors doctors appointments. One for an OBGYN and one for a GP.