So today I went to my weekly therapy appointment, and cried a LOT. This has happened a few times, but somehow today I feel...freer? Today I talked about my rage, and how it has turned me against myself, and how it’s my favorite emotion, despite my efforts to keep it controlled. CPTSD is a bitch, honestly. It takes so much work to get through, and half of your feelings are a total rat’s nest of fear, anguish, and fury.
That said, I am making progress. Slowly, painfully, I am confronting the monsters and learning how to live with them (because they will never actually go away). That said, videos?!