I had dinner with my ex last night and he informed me that he's made the decision to move to SF for the long term, that he's looking for daycare for our son in the city, and the he wants to switch to a week on/week off schedule.

I don't want to straddle our kid between two care facilities and I have to think about schooling in the longer term. I want to be able to live near him but my ex is looking in the northeast of the city and there is NO way in hell I can afford to live there.

I swear to god, just when I am starting to feel like I'm even a little bit not off the rails, between my ex and my current boyfriend I feel like I am constantly on a precipice of falling off into a complete and total breakdown.

I really don't know what I am going to do.