On a whim I bought a pregnancy test today. I'm only a few days late but had some changes in my skin and thought it would be important to know right away as I'm on a drug that isn't pregnancy safe, well, it is a class C medication that isn't proven safe or harmful (to a fetus). Doctors usually would rather you not be on it while pregnant. Anyway, I took the test and it was positive.
I. am. pregnant. Holy sh*t! There is a placenta, lots of cell division and little seed of a baby in me. Like whoa.
At first I cried hysterical about the medication and went in for an emergency appointment with my doctor. He put me at ease and changed me to a different, still class C medication and said I need to see a high risk OB.
I am completely conflicted about being pregnant and sort of freaking out. Now I am thinking about ALL the stuff I do that isn't pregnancy safe. I'm not a big drinker but I love cigarettes and caffeine. I use pure acetone on my nails to remove polish. I am in the process of painting a room in my house. I change my cats litter box. These are a few things I've found that are not pregnancy safe and I've only known since 2pm. Its going to be a long 9 months of living like a straight edge. That doesn't come naturally to me at all.