Last night my friend took me to an album release party. The party was almost entirely white. I made the mistake of assuming one of the people there was white. She was not and corrected me, I apologized, she was incredibly gracious about it. And yet...
I felt so bad that I had to go to the bathroom to calm down. And I got frustrated about being so guilty when she had already forgiven me and I was paranoid about how she still held it against me and how shitty a person I was now and all my ideals didn't mean shit...and I started crying and the rest of my evening went downhill from there.*
This isn't the first time this has happened. I tend to self-flagellate. I remember things I've done wrong all the way back to kindergarten, and I still feel bad about them.
Does anyone else do this? Any tips on how to let things go?
*Is this what white guilt feels like??