Last night I had to take ex's stuff (he left hardly anything at my house, since he thought it was gross and old - he lives in a bland apartment complex) to a mutual friend's house for the exchange. I was so irritated at having to take a minute out of my day to drop it off. It brought up a lot of anger.

I'm slowly but surely building a life on my own, but it's only been a month, and sometimes I still just want to be by myself. Is that OK? I'm doing yoga and writing classes, and I made 1 new friend so far (the sushi waiter I went out on a date with - I told him I'm newly single and would just like to hang out as friends for now).

That selfish, selfish jerk that wouldn't give me affection and devotion. I can't face our mutual friends right now and I am moving into my mom's house for the next week. This is not where I thought I'd be at 30!