I'm in a very bad, no good, terrible mood. I want to REND everyone I come into contact with. I can't focus at work, I'm angry with anyone who is in a good mood. When will I get to be in a good mood? I'm seeing pregnant women everywhere and it just feels like it's being shoved in my face that there are women who enjoy being a mom or excited to become one. What is wrong with me that I don't like this and feel so inadequate in terms of patience and emotional reserves? I'm questioning every life choice I made to end up where I am now and feel so stupid. How could I think I'd like this or even be good at it? I'm not motherly and it's so obvious.