I went on Ativan for a couple of weeks and I think it's gotten to the point where it's not helping matters. When the doctor gets back into the office tomorrow I'm going to talk to her about it. I feel depressed and alone. That's supposed to happen, especially given I have lost my best friend (boyfriend) and all but lost the mutual friends that formed my social group, and the people closest to me outside that relationship are so far away.

I've been thinking about going to stay at my mom's house for a few nights. I'm not taking very good care of myself by myself. I'm not eating much, and I spend a lot of time in bed. It's hard to walk the dog. As weird as it feels I think I need her company right now.