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All is not well in PewPewPew-land, and my anxiety is making it all worse.

I got fired. Again. For the second time in 6 months. For getting bronchitis/sinusitis and taking a week off work.

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And because 6 month probation periods seem to be standard in Australia, I just got thrown out on my ass with no notice and no pay out.

I am having a breakdown, and panicking about EVERYTHING.

Rent and bills are paid for the next month. But after that... I’m fucked. I have a $270 fine to pay by Friday, for accidentally using a senior’s travel pass on the train, which was an honest fucking mistake.

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Tex’s work hours have been cut back, he’s barely going to make rent this month.

I can no longer afford to pay the visa application fee for me to move to the U.S. in a few months’ time, and the longer we leave it the longer we’ll have to be long distance, which is going to suck.

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And also, I AM FREAKING OUT ABOUT MOVING TO THE U.S.!!!

It sounds scary there guys. The healthcare system seems totally fucked, the economy is functioning very erratically. I will be taking a massive pay cut at any job I get over there. I don’t have a college degree, which hasn’t been a huge hurdle here due to my great work experience, but seems to matter a lot more over there.

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But mainly, I am genuinely so scared of losing everything because of a medical emergency. It’s been eating away at me for a couple of weeks now.

I get sick a LOT, I go to the doctor like once a month. I’m forever having blood tests, MRIs etc. And in Australia, it’s all heavily subsidised. In New Zealand, it’s FREE. In the UK,FREE.

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I’m basically mentally flailing my arms and running around in circles.

Thanks for reading my ramblings. I just needed to get it all out of my head.

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