My vision of the mother I wanted to be is turning out to be very different than the mother I am actually capable of being. I'm coming to terms with the face that this is not a bad thing, just different. I am an introvert and I honestly thought I could parent as an extrovert in many ways and be happy. I wanted to breast feed on demand, wear her in a sling, and just generally enjoy my maternity leave at home with her. The reality was so different. I hated how I was constantly needed, I missed having time alone, and I began resenting my daughter.
So I am asking for help from the introverted parents of GT (oh gawd I hope you exist). How did you make it thru the super needy stage? I am destined to just suck at this and hate it until she is older and more independent? Help reassure me. Please.