Because I don't have anyone to tell in real life, and because it's not really that exciting to anyone except meee.

I had a man in my house today. In a platonic sense mostly, but I've got a bit of a crush, and it's a nice new feeling. I'm generally really anxious being alone with men (not because of any past trauma, just my own numerous issues with people and their perceived expectations), and have for the last long while avoided developing both romantic and friendly relationships in which I have to spend a lot of time alone with men. I try to stick to casual group time, so that I don't freak out.

Anyway it was nice, and he is nice and funny, and fine friend in any case.