Since filing for divorce, I've been really interested in what I want and things I like, especially sexually.

I lost my virginity when I was a precocious 14-year-old to a guy who was four-years-older than I was. Despite being an extremely sexual person with the sex drive of a teenage boy that just discovered masturbation, I've spent most of my sexually active years focusing on whatever partner I was with and what they liked in bed. I didn't realize I could orgasm from sex until I was 20 even though I'd been having regular sex for 6 years. I've only orgasmed from oral sex for the first time in the past month. I actually hadn't had a sexual partner even attempt to eat me out for 3 or 4 years at that point.

I've realized that the entire concept I had of my sexuality and what made me feel sexy was entirely based on the men I had slept with. The tongue trick I picked up from #1, the kind of motions I use with my hips is what #4 liked, the love of spanking is what #6 liked. There isn't a problem with being introduced to something new by a partner and having that become something you like in future sexual activity, but what past partners liked shouldn't dominate you're entire view of who you are as a sexual being.

So I've been on a conquest (heh) of sorts to figure out who I am sexually and what I like sexually and so far I've:

1) Gotten my nipples pierced. For myself and no one else.

2) I've been working on my pole dancing skills, because that's something I've always liked doing.

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3) I've always known that I was attracted to women, but I've never had the balls to act on it, and I've been a couple dates with women.

4) Asked for a sexual partner to eat me out.

5) Got my first vibrator

I think I'm doing pretty good on this path of self-discovery and new chapter in my life.