The guy I was talking to before ex-Hopeful has found me on OkC. Here is his message:

"Do you know how hard you are to find on here? I'm sorry I'm doing this to you again but I just watched the movie "Her" and it reminded me of you. I just think it would be nice if you you'd watch it."

First of all, I'm GLAD I'm hard to find on OkC because I blocked your number weeks ago. I had tried so many times to be your friend but it's so obvious you are going to keep gaslighting me and making me feel stupid 'cause you don't "have time" for me (what is the word when someone consistently lets you know that they don't have time to talk to you and that you aren't on their list of priorities?). Secondly, you're sorry you're doing this to me yet you are doing it anyway by contacting me even though I ended things with "UGH FUCK YOU" in those exact words through text message because you didn't want to give into me by calling me when my stepbrother died when I really needed someone to talk to that night I found out he died. You know, the night before my interview in another state to get into a doctoral program, asshole.

I'm well aware no one is obligated to talk to me, but he had time and just said he didn't think it was a good idea because obviously things had to be on his terms because he needs to be in control. Also, did he just seriously make an OkC account and not fill it out just so he could talk to me? Not trying to sound big headed but that's what it seems like...

Finally, why in the world do I need to watch a movie about a guy that is in love with his computer. Yup I'm really gonna watch this movie because you asked me to. Maybe this will give me some insight into why he is such a hot fucking mess? I don't know GTers, what is he trying to tell me about this movie?


I'm feeling really worked up and triggered. I've been thinking a lot lately about all the abuse I've had to put up with from men I encounter.

Not good.