I graduated college in 2012 and, since then, I’ve had two jobs. Neither of them have ever really challenged me. Right now, I make a pretty decent amount of money to sit around and be bored all day. So I added grad school into the mix, thinking it would challenge me enough to add stimulation and learning to my days. It didn’t. Now I’m still bored and depressed, I just have way less time.

When I get bored, I get in a vicious cycle. The lack of a challenge or acknowledgement makes me not try as hard. People probably notice this lack of effort, and so refrain from giving me more challenging work. So I get bored. The cycle continues.

My question is - what will happen if I DO find a challenging job that I like? What will happen when I’m NOT bored? I literally have no idea what that’s like! Is hard work like a muscle? Does it atrophy? Will my years of depressive loafing blow up in my face?