I don’t want to go into a lot of detail, but it’s just been a shit week all around.
I haven’t been feeling well physically or emotionally. I’m waiting on some big news that keeps getting postponed. I’m slacking on doing things I should be getting done at work and home. I’m the type of person who likes to procrastinate and cram everything in at the very last second...but lately when that last second comes, I find myself not caring...so it doesn’t get done. And I’m disappointed in myself, because I know that I have incredible talent,
PMS is tearing me apart. My avoidance tendencies are sky high right now.
And whenever I feel like this, my anxiety starts whispering “it’s not just a bad day or week, it’s depression coming back to take over”...and that makes me EVEN more anxious.
I have amazing friends, but I don’t allow myself to reach out when I’m having a bad day, I feel like I need to keep those struggling texts for when I am in a depression, so I don’t cry wolf.
I’m just sad. And I don’t know how to be okay with being just sad.
Does anyone else struggle with this, and what helps?
PS: I see a therapist/doctors pretty often so I do have support that way.
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