I get extra emotional when I'm PMSing so this post may self-destruct.

I keep thinking about (obsessing over??) breaking up with my boyfriend. And that makes me sad. But I'm not happy. I'm also probably the biggest barrier to my own happiness. I just can't seem to have a normal or productive conversation with him anymore. He says he just wants to please me. And I'm not pleased. It's probably my fault. I don't know.

I also might like somebody else. I could also just be using this crush as an outlet for my sexual and emotional frustration. But apparently the feelings are mutual. I've been feeling nauseated for days now. I guess I should wait it out. I've never been in a long serious relationship before. I should probably give this commitment thing a go.