Because the cheese stands alone.
Last night I had a sleepover with this guy even though he knew I was on my disembodied penis period. We've been having a bit of a thing for a few months but I don't see him often enough for me to feel like there's actual relationship potential. I really like being around him and I'm physically comfortable around him, which for me, is not something that often happens. Most people, especially dates, make me feel uncomfortable. I get closed off and cold and it's very rare that I don't feel completely stiff around people. I don't think that's any special sign though. I don't trust him. Not that he is deliberately untrustworthy, but I have a good solid sense of who I am and what I want and he doesn't. He feels one thing now but there's going to come a point when he second guesses himself and I don't want to be caught up in that wake. And yet I continue to do what I'm doing. Because it feels really nice to be physically close to someone again, although it sucks that I can't and won't allow myself to be emotionally close to him.
This singles open thread got a little more real than usual.