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Seeking manageable inspiration

I have a demanding full time job and I'm also a singer and a performer — not professional but it has given me great joy over the last six years or so, and my whole RL social network is built around it. However, since my Dad's Alzheimers' diagnosis and my very elderly dog's sudden onset of big problems walking (she's under care for everything but is probably nearing the end) at around the same time as the horrible winter closed in, in around January (when I also had an operation), I've barely played or sung and I just kind of look for activities that shut my brain down. But now on top of these other situations, I feel like I've lost myself and I've barely seen any music friends since January - I just work and take care of Dad's business and dog stuff, and then watch dumb movies over and over just to shut thoughts down. I've been here before and I won't get out without taking steps myself — there's no magic consummation to these problems that isn't going to make me feel Much Worse for a good long time. But I don't have time to put all day into healthful activities to bust myself out. I don't know what to do — even practicing music for 20 minutes a day seems like such a dreary waste, but I guess I have to start somewhere, or going for a walk or something seems like just toooo much bother, as opposed to lying in bed watching Twilight (outside of working hours of course). What are your best minimal jump-starters? Once I get going I think I can reclaim my own former habits. Help?


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