My sister was right about one thing. It is a complete overhaul and I have no idea where to start.

I looked at a ton of research internships for the summer for undergrads, and the problem is that ALL of them only take college sophmores or juniors. I'm a senior! I mean the good thing is that they don't require the applicants to be science majors, but I'm basically too old to apply to any. FUCK.

And I'm just so lost in general. This upcoming semester isn't the issue - I already registered for classes and I probably won't be adding anymore. But I don't know what to do from there. I'm planning on declaring a minor in Biology, but I don't think that will be enough to get all the classes I need. I don't know if I'll need a full second (erm, third?) degree in Bio for this. I don't think I do, especially since all the PhD/MD programs I've been looking at specifically say that you don't need to have been a science major.

I'm just not sure if my college will let me stick around to take the classes I need after I finish my English/journalism degree. That's not a huge deal, I can just finish up by May 2015 and then come back as a non-degree to take what I need. But I don't know what I need because I can't find course requirements on any of the websites of ANY programs for Immunology! I talked to my best friend who was pre-med as an undergrad and is currently doing non-degree at my school, and she said for some bizarre reason a lot of these programs won't list the requirements on the website and if they do, they're hidden in some magical place and to contact the admissions offices. She looked at her med school pamphlet that she has and she told me it says "1 year of English with a writing component (not a problem for me), 1 year of math with at least one semester of calculus, 1 year of general Chem + lab, 1 year of Bio + lab, 1 year of Physics + lab, and 1 year of Orgo + lab." That's not bad at all and I can absolutely bang that out in one year, but of course additional coursework is preferred, and she suggested Biochemistry.

Doing this shit while having anxiety is a really bad time. I've been in a perpetual fucking panic attack since looking at internships last night.

I'm going to email the Deputy Chair of the Bio department today and see if I can set up a meeting with him so maybe he can give me some sort of guidelines of what the fuck I need to do. If it takes 4 years before I can even apply to med school, so be it. I just want to know, ya know? Of course I can't wait for the end result of being an Immunologist, but I'm looking forward to the road that'll take me there as well, so I don't mind if it takes a decent amount of time.

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I'll be ok, just panicking like crazy. This is doable though, right? I mean yeah I'm a bit behind because I'm starting now and not at 18 like most people, but that doesn't mean it's impossible, does it?