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But I still have questions, and I'm wondering if anyone on here could help me out. I guess first I should start by sharing my story.

A couple months ago my dad died after a two-year-long battle against colon cancer. He was fifty-eight. Around a year into his treatment, I started getting very depressed. I hated my job, I was living at home, and it was killing me to watch him wither away before my very eyes. He was bone thin and ghost white when he died, whereas my entire life, he had been a big, hairy, ruddy man with a thick head of hair. So watching that transformation was pretty rough...as well as dealing with the actual dying part.

On top of the grief associated with that, I am someone who has always been prone to depression. Until recently, I've been able to deal with it through self-help and self-care. No more. Now I'm experiencing crippling anxiety every other day (which I've never really dealt with before) on top of feelings of depression and despair.


As if all that weren't bad enough, I'm also unemployed right now. So I literally can't afford to be this sick.

After trying to cope with this on my own for a while, I've decided it's time for some professional help. I've never been treated for any kind of mood disorder before. I am sincerely hoping that I did the right thing by calling my primary care physician and asking for a "mental health evaluation." I literally had no idea what the first step was, but someone I met recently (who is treated for bipolar and ADD) said that that was the first thing I need to do.

My questions are: now what? Do I need to do anything to prepare for my appointment? What can I expect my doctor to do? Recommend I see a therapist? A psychiatrist? Put me on anti-depressants? I want to make sure I am prepared and assertive in my appointment, but I really don't know what kind of treatment I want or I am expecting. I just know I can't handle this on my own anymore.

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