But my husband is maybe having a breakdown and will maybe need hospitalization, and I am so lonely and tired and I want to cry but I can't yet. GT is the safest place for me to talk about, well, almost anything, but I am afraid that if I start talking about anything right now I will fall apart and cry, which I just can't do yet. Right now I just have to do.

Anyway, thank you all for always being so kind to me, and I'll be back to normal soon.