This is an update of sorts on my Dream Job is Still Job, post.

Show business is a rough business, you guys. When you're down, you're really down. When things aren't going well, you can start to feel like a hack, like you were never any good, that you never will be any good and you wonder why you even try (this can really be applied to anyone working in the arts field). Anyway, a week and a half or so, I was feeling out of rhythm and going to work was a grind. This week, I have been fucking killing it out there and it has been a-maz-ing!

Seriously, I never understood how a lot of people's greatest fear is having to speak in front of an audience...I can't even understand how you guys live without this feeling.*

It's taken me a little while to get back into my show after surgery, but now that I'm back, it feels really good.

(Also, money. It feels good to have money coming in—there's something really validating in earning a living instead of just coasting off of savings)

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*except for, you know, the part where you don't live with the emotional insecurity and crushing failure that comes when it isn't going well...