With a boy person! I met him on the interwebz.
I enjoy this boy. He has a job, and an apartment, and a car. And he has tattoos and is in a band. And he loves Game of Thrones and cats. And just conversing with him throughout the day has been incredibly pleasant. He's quite kind and polite and has not sent me ONE dick picture or even alluded to teh seks. And he's cute and stuffs.
So we're going to go out next week. I'm essited. Trying to work out le details because he has a grown up person job and stuffs.
I'm trying to kind of...reconcile this with the whole Consort situation. Cuz we have spoken, a few weeks ago, and he basically said he does still have feelings for me but he don't know if he'll ever be ready to be in a relationship with me or anyone. And it's like, I clearly DO have feelings for him still and I made that incredibly clear. But like, I can't sit around and wait forever, right? I mean although we talk almost daily we're still not talking about anything of substance or discussing his feelings or if he's getting to a point where he's ready to be with me. Like he's just not making ANY moves really. He can't just stick me in a corner and say "wait here while I figure my shit out," right?
He did say don't wait around for him. But I don't know, I still feel guilty for some reason. I don't even know if I'm fully ready for a serious relationship, but I am ready to start putting myself out there a bit more. And I am excited about the date with the boy!
I need to find something to wear...