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I had a pretty harrowing experience at the doctor’s office last week (rolled up to what looked like a gutted K-Mart converted in to a doctor’s office, downhill from there), and walked out with a prescription for an SSRI.

I’m a long time anxious/depressive so this isn’t my first experiment with medication. They work for a bit, and then I don’t need them or they don’t work as well, and I free-style for a bit, and then I run into a wall and take another. Lately, everything and everyone around me was starting to get really irritating, so I figured it was a good sign I might need some chemical assistance to find equilibrium for a bit.

It is MISERABLE. It’s been about a week. I’m nauseous but STARVING. I can never seem to eat more than a few bites of anything (which ... I mean, I guess I wanted to lose weight, but this is the worst way to do it). I’ve been struggling a little to get to sleep (we have a Very Big Thing going on at work and I am, naturally, anxious about it). But I usually nod off after about 30 or so minutes - only to wake up at 3 a.m., completely unprompted, and unable to go back to sleep.

It says headaches, nausea, insomnia, fatigue are side-effects. Will this go away if I keep taking it? Or am I signing myself up for another month of this bullshit? I have literally neeeeeeeeever had a reaction this strong to a medication and I _HATE_ it. I’m not super keen to go back to Dr. K-Mart, and it’ll take 6-8 weeks to be seen anywhere else. Should I just toss the rest of the pills? Muscle through and pray it gets better? Perform my own lobotomy and remove the anxious bits? (Joke)

... help?


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