There's a thing I need to do. It's a scary thing for me, which is probably silly and irrational but IDGAF—fears are irrational sometimes and that is just life!

I need to check my email, and then communicate more with the people at my university to get back on track for (finally) finishing my degree. Every person I have mentioned this to IRL says I shouldn't feel this way, but I feel like I failed my adviser and my professors and I am embarassed to ever talk to them or look at them again bc I'm so ashamed of myself. How can I promise my adviser that this time will be better when last time went so wrong? I tend to get all wrapped up in my worst fears in my head and sometimes outside perspective is useful, but I hate asking for help IRL so I am asking you guys.

Been putting this off for a while now so tonight I need to make real progress. Some words of encouragement would be appreciated!

Thanks in advance and much love to you all! And feel free to share the stuff that scares you or whatever you find really hard in your lives now.